Metaphysical shops near me

I'm the main ( only ) carer for my husband who has physical and mental disabilities from being hurt in service.
I recently suffered a back injury. I've been his carer for 10 years. I told him he'd have to look after me for a few days, I said the laundry, cleaning, shopping etc can wait until I'm better or can get outside help. The only thing he needed to do was prepare a simple meal ( he has chef qualifications ) I can't bare weight at all, just lifting a cup of coffee makes me feel sick from pain. The doctors have given me some serious pain killers and told me I must take it easy, and wrote me a letter to drive the point ( I'm not the best at putting my own needs above others ) night 1 he just didn't bother despite my repeatedly asking, I ended up lending money from my dad to get us a cheap chip shop meal. Yesterday he made chips and sausages and beans. He made the chips ahead of time in the deep fat fryer, put them in a metal bowl and put the bowl in the oven along side the sausages, the sausages were the end of a bag of frozen, which he'd tipped onto a baking tray ice an all, he put the beans on full blast for ten minutes, then turned the hob off ( not stirring ) he then sat on the sofa and ignored me saying it smelt done, so I had to deal with it all, bending and lifting the bits out of the oven, obviously the chips were burnt to a crisp, the beans were burnt into a glob. I tried but couldn't eat much of it.
Today I've asked him what the plan is for food, and he huffed and said he didn't know.
I'm 99.9% sure he messed the food up on purpose so I wouldn't ask again. I understand he has limitations, but I can't afford to order in again. The painkillers have made me really woozy, so I'm not even sure if it's safe for me too cook.
I don't want to accuse him of weaponised incompetence, but part of me is thinking hang on I've given up my life for 10 years to look after him, and he can't even make me a consumable meal when injure myself being his carer in the first place?

Just some background- I will graduate with my masters in May of 2024. And I plan to go back to an ABSN program after working for 1 year. Then after working as a nurse for 1-3y I plan to apply and hopefully get into CRNA school. This is roughly an 8-9 year plan untill I have a constant income.
Right now I have 27,000 in federal loans for undergrad.
For grad school I have 20,000 on direct unsubsidized loans Then I have another 23,000 on plus loans And I owe my parents 60,000 in private loans. Any further schooling from here that I do will be on government private loans and not from my parents.
Year 1- My master degree will give me a starting salary of 55-75K - which I will only use for 1 year. When I do make income this 1st year, how should I split up my paycheck?
Year 2- The ABSN program will be roughly 60-80k in tuition. No income during this 1 year. Living off PLUS loans entirely.
Year 3-5 Hopefully working as a nurse for 1-3 years will bring in some solid income but it's not for a long period of time. When I do get my paycheck these couple years, how should I split up my pay check?
Year 6-9 Then CRNA school is basically 150k for 3 years. No income during these 3 years. Living off PLUS loans entirely.
Year 10- Start earning as a CRNA! Woohoo! Roughly 190-230k starting
How do you recommend I organize my loans/ payment plans to combat the loans/ living costs? Which loans should I take out/ what should I looking for when shopping for loans?
Any help is appreciated please! I'm not sure how to maneuver loans that well.

So I have been getting closer and closer to buying a second car for fun. Been getting unlucky on some specialty runs. GR Corolla had like ten that came to my region. Civic Type R may not happen with no dealer knowing how many they will be getting now in my area. So I started reviewing my list of wants and moved over to 2 door sports cars.
Ultimately started sending out interest for the 2024 year, which lined up with when I wanted to spend the cash and find dealers near me have never been allocated for a manual version.
So this lead me to my curious question if you couldn’t get your hands on the manual would you settle for automatic or move on to find a different car or find an other dealer even if the distance is far away?

I’m 28f. Someone messaged me today from my past, we never slept together but did go on a date ages ago and it was a very sexually charged convo when we did speak, he said he had my number and was clearing out his phone so I insisted I had 0 clue why or how he got it as he kept mentioning a name I don’t remember and the number wasn’t in my phone anymore and at this point I had no recollection of this person. Anyway he reeled off some stuff and I then said oh I remember you, why are you changing your identity when it’s clear I know you’re lying.
Anyway, long story short he asked what I was doing career wise so I answered, then he was asking if I still stayed on at the place I originally planned and I said no times change etc. I gave my own flat. He then said it’s near him Then he said “maybe swing by mine” I said nope thanks I’m happily taken and married (I’m not married but I imagined that would shut him down) anyway later on he said “I saw the old conversations and they were very messy” I said out of respect just delete them I’m not the same person as I was thrn. He then kept insisting I was lying to put on a front or that I was lying to myself. So I laughed and corrected him, saying that I just matured. He kept banging on abouy the conversations and sent me inappropriate screenshots of old things, so I said, I don’t believe I acted in the way you say so can I see these chats. He pulled the worst ones involving sex and I just said delete it all, but it’s funny how I replied at 7 am after a night out and I go to work at that time lol how life changes. He then said”I don’t keep girls numbers if we didn’t have sex so I’ve defo had sex with you” I said “no wouldn’t be me. I wasn’t interested (laugh emoji)” he then insisted we did and said I would call him for it I said “look I don’t know who you’re mjxing me up with but that behaviour is tragic and wouldn’t be me. If it was I was probably off my head”
He kept saying it gets worse with some screenshots that he sent me and I said. I’m not that girl I don’t need to see it. To which he then said, well I’ll leave you to it but it sounds like you still have a thing for me. I ignored it and decided not to play into it.
Then later, he said “oh I saw your Instagram pictures, you’re so punching above your weight with him” I got annoyed and then said how rude it was and took a second to educate him. To which he then said “it was a joke, you know you’re very pretty” at this point I said “delete my number, leave me along and let’s not continue this anymore”
He then said “if I were him I wouldn’t be too happy we were chatting but it sounds like you wanna carry on”
I ignored and blocked.
Tldr: spoke to a guy and I feel really guilty and like I’ve done something wrong entertaining it. Have I done wrong here?

Hi guys,
I've gone through 3 different models of 5G modems and on all of them I get a signal strength of around -100dBm on all of them.
I've tried putting the modems in every part of my house ( ground floor ) as well as taking an extension cord, stepping outside of my house into my small yard and trying to get signal strength to only get to -90dBm.
My ISP said that I am in 5G coverage by a hefty lot but it seems I'm living in a faraday cage. . .
What would be the best course of action except moving because unfortunately I can't at the moment.
All I'm looking for is a good and stable connection, I work from home and I'm constantly in call via skype/zoom/slack/discord and I need to have my camera on as well as screen sharing.
Is there anything like an external antenna that could help?
Note : Near me I have a LTE B1 B3 B7 B28 tower ( >640m away from me ) & a LTE B1 B3 ( >300m away from me ) hopefully that might assist in figuring out what's best because personally I am at a loss.
Thanks in advance.

For context; we're married for 14 months, both 29 yo.
Overall everything's fine. And I'm happy but this weekend we had continuous fight.
We don't live together since my marriage, he comes on weekends.
We both are doctors.He works in a basic health unit in a village and I live in the city with his family (who are nice to me). Professionally I'm senior to him. 3 years almost. But he's financially more stable by his family. But I always want him to succeed. He tries but not like I think he should do. He hasn't passed a single exam. He has alot of family business in the village to deal. And then alot of travelling for his health unit. And then on weekends he has to play pub-g.
The only reason of our fight. I can overlook the facts his time getting wasted for family matters in the village but when he intentionally does this it boils my blood. No matter how much I try to control and not be bossy, I keep interfering, he'd be apologetic (while playing game) and then at 1 point he'll lose his temper too.
He's been constantly playing game since friday. After every game he'll come to me trying to be playful, took me on long drive and other things. And again he'll go play game with his brothers.
And if I ask him to leave it again and again, he says I'll start studying from monday. And I just cant get this digested. He's not a school going kid. I took a promise from him im ramadan that he won't play it for 1 month and he fulfilled it. Now he's doing it again.
It's not that he's always doing it, but when he does he just won't stop and exam is near.
I've been grumpy too. I don't know if I'm wrong or just making a mountain out of rye. But we're expecting a baby and I want him to be mature.
tl;dr: couldn't put every detail, that would be long but I really need help. It has strained our relationship. And that's bothering me the most. But how can I just overlook the reality.

A Brief Introduction

I used to struggle with Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) and Small Intestinal Bacterial Overgrowth (SIBO). It got to the point where I was afraid to eat, as every meal, even small ones, would trigger brutal heartburn. My skin was peeling off my hands, almost to the point of bleeding. Constant stomach and intestinal pains, bloating, belching - I was like a gas machine. I couldn't do any sports because any physical strain would provoke gastric acid reflux and severe heartburn. A perpetually irritated esophagus caused discomfort whenever I ate.
But, it seems, I managed to heal all this. Everything is good again now: I eat almost whatever I want and don't suffer.

Part 1: Backstory from 2017 to 2020

Rash, Blisters, Stress, Didn't Pay Much Attention

• Blisters began to itch, so I visited a dermatologist and took tests: no fungus, no skin problems.
• Went to an allergist, conducted a ton of expensive allergy tests, no problems found.
• Saw a gastroenterologist: they found mild gastritis, but it wasn't causing problems.
• I let it go, thinking it would pass on its own.

Part 2: 2020 - 2023. Symptom Worsening

COVID-19 Pandemic and the Downfall of Businesses

In 2020, COVID-19 hit. My businesses were crumbling due to lockdowns - restaurant chains, coffee shops, and educational schools. I was paranoid about the health risks and potential loss of relatives due to the pandemic (several of my close friends and acquaintances had lost relatives to COVID-19).
I was working 24/7, sometimes eating whatever was at hand, and that's when my digestive problems began. Heartburn, discomfort, and lower abdominal pains started occurring more frequently.

Health Issues and COVID-19

I got vaccinated, but still got infected with COVID-19, and it took about a year and a half for my sense of smell to return.
My immunity was feeble without vitamins and proper diet, and there was a lot of psychological and physical strain (I tried to exercise 4-5 times a week, running, to somehow compensate for the work-related stress with sports).

Seeking Medical Assistance and Temporary Relief

Eventually, I started visiting gastroenterologists to understand the cause of the heartburn. Nothing critical was found in the stomach, except for an irritated mucosa.
I went to some doctors, and they prescribed Omeprazole and similar acid-lowering medications. They gave some relief for a week, but then the symptoms worsened.

Health at its Worst and a Slight Ray of Hope

After several courses of Omeprazole and similar drugs, my condition only got worse. In the end, it got to the point where I was afraid to eat. I eliminated everything from my diet except water and simple boiled dishes, but I still had constant heartburn, gas, skin peeling on my fingers, etc.
Ultimately, I was fortunate to meet the 4th or 5th doctor, after whom I began to see small improvements.

Part 3: Getting Slightly Better, But Not Much

The Different Approach That Started Helping

This doctor's approach was a little different, and in the end, it started helping.
The doctor ordered some tests, and we discovered that I had a chronic E.Coli infection in my intestines, which should not be there. Usually, it causes acute poisoning and quickly leaves the body, but it also produces pretty strong toxins (which, as I would understand later, caused inflammation in the intestines, which in turn caused skin problems on my hands). (link to wiki and articles)
Symptom 1: Skin rash - Check.
This infection, as I understand it, (correct me if anyone has more detailed knowledge), by receiving nutrients, begins to actively produce an excessive amount of gases. This causes constant (every 1-2 minutes) burping and the desire to pass gas, which in turn creates excessive pressure in the intestines. This pushes stomach and intestinal contents towards the esophagus and disrupts the proper functioning of all digestive processes.
Symptom 2: GERD - Check.Symptom 3: Burping and Farting (sorry) - Check.Symptom 4: Abdominal pains and cramps - Check.Symptom 5: Stones in the gallbladder and slight pains in gallbladder area - Check.

Attempting to Balance the Microbiome

So, this doctor wanted to try to balance my microbiome. He prescribed diets like Fodmap, a lot of supporting medicines to feed the right bacteria, and at the same time, he wanted me to take antibiotic-type medicines to kill E.Coli. It was also thanks to this doctor that I found out I have confirmed lactose intolerance and Gilbert's Syndrome.
We started with bacteriophage, as one of the most gentle ways to kill E.Coli without disturbing the other "good" bacteria.
During the time I took bacteriophage, the symptoms were getting better (the skin and everything), but when I stopped it (after 14 days or so) things returned to where they were before.

Recurring E.Coli Infections

After that, I retested and we found E.Coli again.
Now we tried the antibiotic rifaximin (in small dose), the effect was the same: better symptoms, everything got back after I stopped taking antibiotics.
Now, I took the test and found out that I didn't have any normal E.coli in my intestines, apparently it was replaced by the infectious E.coli.
The third time, it was prescribed to take bacteriophage first for 10 days, then rifaximin in small dose (200 mg twice a day for 14 days or so).
The result was exactly the same: symptoms return, E.coli persists in the test.

Struggling to Balance the Microbiome

During the antibiotic treatment, I took supporting prebiotics, probiotics, and other drugs. However, the probiotic with E.coli was not available in my country, it was not produced, and there was none in pharmacies at all.
After that, I moved from the country to another country and lost contact with my previous doctors.
Since I had been suffering from this for 5 years already, I was almost desperate to cure it all. I collected all the information I had, everything I discussed with doctors, everything I read on medical resources, confirmed by verified medical research, and decided to take a risk and wage a final battle with E.coli and my problems.
Disclaimer: I do not recommend and even warn against self-medication. I am not a professional doctor and I was lucky that it helped me. I initially consulted with literally dozens of doctors, read all thematic resources, acted on the results of my current tests and analyses.

Part 4: Relief

Having moved to another country, I decided to do the following:

1. Take a large dose of rifaximin for treating E.Coli (550 mg x 14 days).
2. Support the balance of the microbiota during the entire intake of the antibiotic by taking Saccharomyces Boulardi.
3. Follow a fodmap-diet throughout the entire drug intake period.
4. Completely eliminate sugar during the antibiotic treatment, for 2 months from the start of the antibiotic treatment, and limit sugar intake after that (i.e., no sodas, chocolates, sweet drinks. I clearly noted a worsening of symptoms immediately after their intake).
5. After the end of antibiotic treatment, I took Mutaflor for a month (starting with 3 tablets twice a day for the first 3-4 days, then two weeks 2 tablets twice a day, then 1 tablet twice a day). Remember, according to my test results, I had little or no normal E.coli in the intestines and instead, the pathogenic E.coli was actively hanging out and enjoying life.
6. I restricted, but did not completely remove, the consumption of lactose.

I finished the treatment a month ago and so far, I don't see any symptoms of the disease: skin problems are gone, heartburn, rumbling in the intestines, gases also disappeared.
I may feel heaviness in the intestines after consuming dairy products in large amounts (for example, Greek yogurt with berries before bedtime), but if I limit the consumption of dairy products, I do not feel any problems with the intestines.
Now I am trying to solve problems with the gallbladder and smoothly return to a normal active life: I'm not afraid to eat, exercise, I don't wake up with pain in the abdominal area at night or in the mornings.

Part 5: Final and Good Luck

I hope that such a detailed story will help some of you not to despair, find the right doctor, the right approach, and the right reasons for your problems and to wake up without pain in the intestines again, eat any food without fear, and enjoy life again.

When I speak with other Lagotto owners, they often say that these dogs need jobs. They need to work. One women nearby even says "we're going to work," instead of "we're going for a walk, etc."
I don't really get it. I mean, I do, but I don't.
I play two games with him. I play nose games at the park. I throw treats in the grass and he races around finding them like a damn detective. The other game is more like fetch, but for fish. He jumps into the river and swims around, sometimes into the current 😳 waiting for me to throw a stick or a ball. As soon as stick number one is retrieved, he swims around again, sometimes pretty far out, waiting for number two, three, five, twenty. He never gets tired. The only way he stops is if I walk away from the shore. He needs to be near me.
Is this what folks mean by "work." I mean. There's no benefit to society here. No monetary compensation. Nothing to show for it minus dirty paws and dusty snouts.
To a dog, I guess, this is an important vocation. Finding stuff. Swimming after things. Following commands and pleasing this weird two-legged provider of room and board. But this thing people have where they say "We are going to work." Or "Lagottos need a job," feels pretentious.
Am I missing something? Can we just say, "we're off to the river," without making it sound like this bozo is some kind of professional?

For context; we're married for 14 months, both 29 yo.
Overall everything's fine. And I'm happy but this weekend we had continuous fight.
We don't live together since my marriage, he comes on weekends.
We both are doctors.He works in a basic health unit in a village and I live in the city with his family (who are nice to me). Professionally I'm senior to him. 3 years almost. But he's financially more stable by his family. But I always want him to succeed. He tries but not like I think he should do. He hasn't passed a single exam. He has alot of family business in the village to deal. And then alot of travelling for his health unit. And then on weekends he has to play pub-g.
The only reason of our fight. I can overlook the facts his time getting wasted for family matters in the village but when he intentionally does this it boils my blood. No matter how much I try to control and not be bossy, I keep interfering, he'd be apologetic (while playing game) and then at 1 point he'll lose his temper too.
He's been constantly playing game since friday. After every game he'll come to me trying to be playful, took me on long drive and other things. And again he'll go play game with his brothers.
And if I ask him to leave it again and again, he says I'll start studying from monday. And I just cant get this digested. He's not a school going kid. I took a promise from him im ramadan that he won't play it for 1 month and he fulfilled it. Now he's doing it again.
It's not that he's always doing it, but when he does he just won't stop and exam is near.
I've been grumpy too. I don't know if I'm wrong or just making a mountain out of rye. But we're expecting a baby and I want him to be mature.
tl;dr: couldn't put every detail, that would be long but I really need help. It has strained our relationship. And that's bothering me the most. But how can I just overlook the reality.

Hi everyone,
This has been happening to me a lot with this print, so looking for advice. I've leveled the plate, though I'm tempted to re-re-level it again tomorrow before my next attempt. My guess is that the exposure time isn't right, but I don't feel like I've had that issue before with my settings. I'm using the out of the box Chutibox settings for this, which matches the recommended settings on the Elegoo website.
I thought about the supports being too light. I used the auto-apply medium supports. I was hesitant to use heavy because it looks like it makes a pretty solid, flat surface on the build plate, and I know how much pain flat surfaces can be to remove - ha.
This is ELEGOO ABS-Like 3D Printer Resin 2.0. Settings are attached. The temperature is probably around 80-ish degrees in the shop right now. Maybe a bit cooler overnight, but still probably 70s.
Thank you as always! If you're in the US, enjoy your holiday weekend.

Well this is slightly embarrassing, not that anyone saw, but it's embarrassing to know I didn't realise while it was happening.
To start off, I am NOT a morning person, never have been. And my work thought that me, an 18 year old who has a sleep schedule that any normal person would be ashamed of having was the best candidate to be the new baker and start at the ass crack of dawn. So when I was given shifts at work to start at 5.45am I wasn't thrilled but didn't complain because I'm an over thinker, and was scared if get in trouble.
And for context, I work at a co-op shop that has a small 1 person bakery.
So I have 4 of these shifts in a row, and I'm on day 3 now. Everything has been going fine aside from me being absolutely exhausted by the time I get home. But today, today I thought I was good enough to rely on auto pilot.
So I get into the shop and start setting up the bakery, putting bread, donuts, croissants, apple pies and cookies in the oven for the customers. I finish everything bar the donuts and cookies at this point, and it's gone flawlessly, I'm thrilled that I am way ahead of schedule and I'd get my break sooner then expected. But here is where it goes wrong.
As I get the first batch of donuts off the cooling rack, the ring donuts, I start moving on muscle memory and rely on my body's auto pilot, it's an easy job, I suger the donuts and put them in the bag. Nothing to mess up right? It's easy as hell to do.
So I suger the ring donuts and put them all the bags, onto the trolley and onto the next batch I go. As I'm grabbing the custard bags to date them I had a realisation. I'd already grabbed these bags today, but I hadn't packed any custard donuts yet.
I look over to the trolley with about 10 bags of donuts on it, custard bags. I put the ring donuts in fucking custard bags, all sealed up as well. I then spend the next 15 minutes unpacking 40 donuts and putting them in the correct bags while trying to make it as unnoticeable as possible. Phew, crisis averted, I fixed the donuts and all is peaceful again.
Wrong, I pack the rest of the donuts without worry, but them comes the cookies. The bloody cookies. At this point I'm all happy with myself because I cought my mistake before the donuts went to the shelves, I was happily packing the cookies thinking to myself when I went to bag the double chocolate cookies and realised I'd done it again, I put the milk chocolate cookies in the double chocolate bags. I'm a moron. So, again, I spend a little while fixing my mistake. Thankfully I hadn't sealed the bags yet this time.
TL;DR
I put 40 ring donuts in custard bags and sealed them without realising. Fixed my mistake, crisis averted.
Nope, did the same thing with the cookies.
I need a fucking nap. Badly
So yeah, I'm an idiot and I'm doing this all again tomorrow.

In the middle of my six-month contract with a client through an agency, my manager unexpectedly inquired about the end date of my contract and whether I had considered transitioning to a permanent position. (On a side note: is it appropriate for my manager to ask this question directly, considering my contract is through an agency? Shouldn't this query be directed to the agency?)
How should I interpret this situation? Could it indicate a cost-cutting measure, aiming to convert contractors into permanent employees? Alternatively, is there a positive angle where my manager views me as a valuable asset to the team and intends to include me in long-term plans?
I am inclined to believe the latter since the company appears to be financially stable, and I have performed exceptionally well on the assigned projects.
When faced with this question again as my initial contract nears its end, what would be the best response? Ideally, I desire an extension and a higher compensation. If my manager's interest in transitioning me to a permanent role suggests a desire to retain my services, I could potentially leverage this to my advantage by requesting an increased daily rate while "considering the possibility of going permanent."

For context; we're married for 14 months, both 29 yo.
Overall everything's fine. And I'm happy but this weekend we had continuous fight.
We don't live together since my marriage, he comes on weekends.
We both are doctors.He works in a basic health unit in a village and I live in the city with his family (who are nice to me). Professionally I'm senior to him. 3 years almost. But he's financially more stable by his family. But I always want him to succeed. He tries but not like I think he should do. He hasn't passed a single exam. He has alot of family business in the village to deal. And then alot of travelling for his health unit. And then on weekends he has to play pub-g.
The only reason of our fight. I can overlook the facts his time getting wasted for family matters in the village but when he intentionally does this it boils my blood. No matter how much I try to control and not be bossy, I keep interfering, he'd be apologetic (while playing game) and then at 1 point he'll lose his temper too.
He's been constantly playing game since friday. After every game he'll come to me trying to be playful, took me on long drive and other things. And again he'll go play game with his brothers.
And if I ask him to leave it again and again, he says I'll start studying from monday. And I just cant get this digested. He's not a school going kid. I took a promise from him im ramadan that he won't play it for 1 month and he fulfilled it. Now he's doing it again.
It's not that he's always doing it, but when he does he just won't stop and exam is near.
I've been grumpy too. I don't know if I'm wrong or just making a mountain out of rye. But we're expecting a baby and I want him to be mature.
I couldn't put every detail, that would be long but I really need help. It has strained our relationship. And that's bothering me the most. But how can I just overlook the reality.

last year i ran away from home and came to live with my boyfriend at his parents house. our plan was to get a job and save money as quick as possible because his parents are also abusive. when i got here though, it was super difficult to get a job. i have really severe anxiety that i’ve been trying to get treated, but it’s been taking so long just because it’s impossible to find a psychiatrist accepting new patients that accepts my insurance. i’ve been going to therapy and she has been helping me get into a psychiatrist, but she says my anxiety is to the point where medication is really the only thing that will help.
yesterday, i woke up with a feeling that something terrible was going to happen, but also woke up feeling depressed, so i tried so hard not to overthink it, and went out and did a couple things while my boyfriend was at work. on my way to meet someone, the battery light on my car came on, so i pulled over and googled what to do and everything i found was all saying it’s not safe to drive, so i turned around and went to my boyfriends job and waited until he was done because of my battery was going to die i wanted to at least be with my boyfriend so we didn’t have to find two different ways home (he doesn’t have a license). while i was waiting, my car battery actually died and his boss came and jump started it and we made it home. i only know a little bit about cars but my brother was helping me over the phone. the alternator in my car doesn’t work, so we were trying to take the battery out last night at 12 am so the battery doesn’t drain and i’d have to pay even more to get a new alternator AND new battery. but we didn’t have the right tools to do it so we had to just leave it.
now, it’s the next day and i don’t even know what i’m supposed to do. last night i was drafting texts to send to my grandpa apologizing for leaving and begging for help. and i don’t want their help but i don’t know what to do. i have no money, i’ve been driving with no car insurance, i don’t have aaa, my car has needed to be serviced for months, i can’t get a job. now my boyfriend has to ride his bike to work and back in the dark after working 12 hours shifts 5 days a week and it could have been prevented if i just could take care of my car. my 12 year old brother is in the hospital right now and i have no way to go visit him. i didn’t drink or eat anything yesterday and the thought of eating now makes me want to vomit.
because i don’t have a car i have to stay home alone with my boyfriends parents all day and i am petrified of them, they are nearly identical to my grandparents (behavior wise) and the anxiety i have from that is paralyzing.
i so badly wish i was able to prove my grandparents wrong but i am just proving their point. i cannot take care of myself and this feels like the end of the world to me.

I'm 29, Asian (living in a western country). I'm thin, own my own apartment, have a great career, work out regularly, awesome friends and hobbies. However, I'm shy and introverted. Due to my culture, I am more conservative. I've only ever slept with one person. The reason why I think I haven't had a relationship, is I've never found a person who I'm attracted to and connect with.
Something else as well, is I struggle a lot with physical and sexual intimacy. I'm learning in therapy that I find it hard to feel safe in those situations, so to be intimate with someone, I need to trust them, know them well and emotionally connect with them.
The problem is, on dating apps it feels like nobody ever wants to give me a chance. People either want a short, casual relationship and to jump right into sex. Or people ghost me. Or we match and they don't respond. I try to meet people in real life, and it's hard because I'm shy. There have been two occasions where I plucked up the courage when out to speak to a guy and ask for their number: one guy was taken and another ghosted me :( The thought of a guy who I'm attracted to and really like, ever willing to be patient with me and give me the time to trust them, feels near impossible.
Thinking about this brings me to tears. I feel like I'm broken and somethings wrong with me where clearly people just don't want to date me. I'm trying to work out why...all i can think of is that I'm shy. In my culture and how I was brought, being silent and quiet was encouraged. It's hard for me to break out of my shell if I don't know you. once someone gives me the chance and time, i can break out and be more confident.
Generally though, I have good interpersonal skills (I'm actually a therapist myself. In that way, my self-reflection is good, and i help lots of clients with relationship problems, so while I don't have a lot of personal experience, have developed a lot of values surrounding what I feel is important in a healthy relationship).
I've asked my guy friends what it might be. They said it might be because I'm Asian. Is that so?
My friends often describe me to be gentle, kind, intelligent, empathetic and thoughtful. I do think I'm relatively attractive as well. I get lost in discussion about things I'm passionate about. I love creating new things, going on adventures and eating food. I just want to meet someone who wants to connect and do those things together. I don't even care if it doesn't eventuate into a relationship...I just want someone to give me a chance to connect.
Is there anything I can be doing differently? Please help. I'm going to therapy and trying to unpack it all, but I really just need some solid advice.

I (16M) have kinda lost my appetite lately and I don’t know why. My mum is realising too. The other night she made me a chicken burger for dinner, but I took one nibble and decided I was done. I couldn’t eat any more. Last night and Friday night, I just ended up not having dinner.
On Friday I was debating about whether to have cereal for dinner or not but then decided I wasn’t hungry. I did eat pudding/dessert that night though which was only a bowl of Eton mess.
Yesterday, I didn’t have breakfast, and when my dad asked me to pick something from a shop to have as just a small snack for breakfast, I just really didn’t want anything. I ended up choosing something just so he would stop asking me to choose. I chose a 20 pack of Jaffa Cakes and by the end of the day I had only eaten 10 of them. The drink I chose had aloe vera pieces in it, but I don’t think that counts as food. Apart from that all I had to eat was a Greggs pizza for lunch and a packet of crisps and a cookie instead of dinner. I didn’t eat anything else.
Usually I can binge eat a lot but lately I just haven’t felt hungry. The pizza I ate yesterday wasn’t even because I was hungry, it was just because I wanted to taste it. I don’t understand what has happened or why my eating habits have changed. Sometimes I have felt too upset to want to eat anything but I don’t feel upset, there is nothing that has upset me lately. So far today I have eaten the second half of the Jaffa Cakes from yesterday and a few peanut m&ms but I’m just not hungry. I keep just eating things for the taste atp.
I’m mainly having drinks as food, but if we go somewhere and they don’t have the drink I want, I will end up just going without. I don’t know what to do, please help. Any advice is greatly appreciated.

I usually don't rant about clubs on the internet, as all clubbers have different tastes and priorities - but sorry, what was that at aeden BCCOxStorno yesterday?
We bought tickets on resident advisor and arrived quite early at around 7pm. At that time, the ticket queue was still empty and we were in after a few minutes. Another friend who was supposed to join us arrived at around 9pm and wasn't able to get in. The ticket queue wasn't moving at all because they were lacking staff. At the same time it looked like they were still letting people from the box office queue in...
Inside, the club was super packed. The toilet and bar queues were insanely long and the bars were super slow. It took us nearly 45min to get something to drink. The outdoor floor was way too crowded with people/groups running around the floor all the time so it was nearly impossible to dance. When the outdoor floor closed and the other floors opened it got a bit better. Though, the main indoor floor seemed to have little to no ventilation. It felt like you can't breathe and you were instantly soaked. Don't get me wrong, I like sweaty parties but this was way too much. Never seen something like this before. Second indoor floor downstairs was ok, for my taste a bit booring / could do more with lights.
As the night progressed, it all got a bit better but I don't want to imagine what people have to bear going for the second day...
TL;DR stop letting so many people in, or open more floors and hire more staff. A good lineup doesn't make up for shitty organisation.

My conch earring ball got lost so I stopped at a local tattoo shop to grab some new jewelry. I asked in general about what conch piercings they had, and when she said they only had flat back ball style, I asked for a curved barbell. She/The store manager started yelling at me that curved barbells don’t go in conch piercings. I told her I hadn’t asked her opinion—I had asked for a curved barbell. The piercer then tried to chime in but, at that point I was furious told them all I’d put whatever in my holes (paraphrasing) I felt like. Told store manager to kick rocks and left.
My original piercing jewelry was a curved barbell. I’ve done flat back, and hoops but the curved barbell has always been most comfortable. Has anyone ever heard that you “can’t” put a curved barbell in a conch?

On Thursday, I was eating my dinner outside and I accidentally swallowed the skin off the kidney beans. I was so anxious so a ew minutes later, I could still feel the sensation in the back of my throat and I tried to cough it out, to no avail. I then drank lots of water to try and wash it down but still felt it there. I then, had this feeling that most of what I ate had not been chewed properly and was stuck in my throat as well (chilli con carne with rice). I kept on drinking my water but felt like it did nothing, I even had lemon & ginger tea.
Symptoms: * Dry feeling in throat * Fullness in the throat * Discomfort in throat * Food stuck in throat * Chest burning/tight sensation * Food stuck in chest * Frequent burping * No pain * Feel like I can't breathe * Altered breathing * Possibly wheezing (?) * Gassy stomach (noisy, bubbling, etc) * Food lodged in throat * Fluids not going down * New foods not going down * Salvia not going down * Food impaction * Lump in throat * Feel like vomiting will relieve symptoms
Fast forward to Friday, I wake up with the sensation still there throughout the day. I'm hungry, stomach is rumbling but I feel like the previous food is still lodged in my throat and is putting me off chewing and eating. Anyway, I attempt my lunch and dinner with anxious thoughts and I continue to drink water but I feel like it still doesn't help.
The same symptoms have been present since Thursday and it's now Sunday. I'm so scared and I do suffer from my anxiety. Thoughts keep going through my mind about *****. Distractions don't work as I can still feel the lump in my throat.
I thought it was globus sensation at first but it doesn't feel like my typical globus experience as it feels like food is actually stuck in my throat. I still haven't told any of my family about this issue because I'm afraid they'll dismiss it as anxiety and I'm "thinking about it it". But the symptoms feel very real and I'm concerned that I have some undiagnosed condition that needs medical attention ASAP.
In terms of seeking help , can't do anything as its bank holiday tomorrow and the hospitals / doctors near me will be closed so will have to wait until Tuesday.
I've been following home remedies like drinking cold milk and drinking tea and they aren't helping. I don't know what todo next.
I'm quite worried that it's serious and I'm going to *** at 24.
I'm on here just looking for advice, and possibly a solution. Does it sound like GERD, cancer, food impaction, globus sensation? or any other throat related condition? Help :(

22 June
- Check-in to the hotel and rest
23 June
- Breakfast at the hotel - 06:00 to 07:00
- Senso-ji - 08:00 to 09:00
- Tokyo Skytree - 10:00 to 12:00
- Lunch near Tokyo Skytree - 12:00 to 13:00
- Take train to Gundam Factory Yokohama - 13:00 to 14:00
- Gundam Factory Yokohama - 14:00 to 17:00
- Dinner and back to hotel - 18:00 to 20:00
24 June
- Depart hotel at 06:00
- Hakone Loop Counter-clockwise:
- Take train to Odawara Station - 07:00 to 08:30
- Take the Hakone Tozan Train to Gora Station - 08:30 to 09:30
- Hakone Ropeway to Owakudani - 09:30 to 11:00
- Lunch at Owakudani - 11:00 to 12:00
- Hakone Ropeway to Togendai - 12:00 to 13:00
- Sightseeing at Lake Ashi and Hakone Shrine - 13:00 to 15:00
- Take bus to Moto-Hakone - 15:00 to 15:30
- Sightseeing at Old Tokaido Road and Hakone Checkpoint - 15:30 to 16:30
- Take boat cruise to Hakone-machi - 16:30 to 17:30
- Bus back to Odawara Station - 17:30 to 18:00
- Take train back to hotel - 18:00 to 19:30
- Dinner and back to hotel - 19:30 to 21:00
25 June
- Breakfast at the hotel - 06:00 to 07:00
- Free time - 09:00 to 10:30
- Shinjuku Gyoen National Garden - 11:00 to 13:00
- Lunch near Shinjuku Gyoen National Garden - 13:00 to 14:00
- Tokyo Tower - 14:30 to 16:00
- Tsukiji Outer Market - 16:30 to 18:00
- Ginza shopping and sightseeing - 18:00 to 20:00
- Dinner and back to hotel - 20:00 to 22:00
26 June
- Meiji Jingu - 06:00 to 08:00
- Yoyogi Park - 08:30 to 10:30
- Lunch at Shibuya - 11:00 to 12:30
- Shibuya Crossing and Hachiko Statue - 12:30 to 13:30
- Akihabara - 14:00 to 16:00
- Harajuku shopping and sightseeing - 16:30 to 18:30
- Dinner and back to hotel - 19:00 to 21:00
27 June
- Free time to explore or do any last-minute shopping
- Check out of the hotel - 12:00
- Take train or taxi to Haneda Airport - 18:00 to 19:00
- Fly home
My budget is around 1000 dollars (excluding flight, food, and accommodation). You guys got any tips and advices?