I am sorry I am still kinda out of it and trying get out my thoughts
I feel so lost in life right now and it feels like everything is like a word that is on the tip of your tongue but you can't remember
Like being so close to understanding but not sure why am I in my way?
I don't know how to change even when I do it's on the flip of a dime
Even then I don't change ? How to know that you changed?
I feel so dependent on others and don't feel my own right to anything. But all the choices are the same outcome even not making one. I am scared that my life feel like a endless story book. Yet, it will end?
I don't feel human. I don't like eating it doesn't feel clean. I don't feel clean.
Everything just hurts but I am scared to cry again. I did earlier this week. I keep embarrassing myself of the choices I made

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I first met this guy three years ago Ill refer to him as T. After a few dates we eventually started dating. We made plans once to twice a week where I would drive an hour to come see him and every time our plan would change and we stayed in and eat food. The relationship plateaued pretty quickly. We stopped trying to get to know each other. Anytime I would ask him about himself or his day he always deflected and switched topics. I started to feel like that he didn’t want to be seen with me in public and that I was secret. It started to take a toll on my mental health. (I felt like I was being hidden and he didn’t want to be seen with me) I ended the relationship after being for a few months and took a break to focus on myself and my mental health. Fast forward a few months later and I reached back out to him just to see how he was doing. I felt like I was in a better place mentally and was ready to try things again. He was in a relationship with someone else. I told him I was completely fine with being platonic and if he felt like that crossed a boundary with the current person he was seeing that if he didn’t want to talk me I would be ok with that. He told me it was fine and we rarely chatted and when we did it was just about how our day was and that was it. Eventually he stopped talking to me all together. (Months later he stopped talking to me because he still had feelings for me and couldn’t lie to his current gf at the time about the feelings he had for.) I messaged him to give him back his hoodie (I tried giving it back to him right after the initial break up but he wouldn’t take it back. The hoodie was a gift from T moms of his favorite basketball team and I didn’t feel right just throwing it away.) I was getting ready to move in with my then BF Ill refer to him as J and didn’t want to explain why I had exs hoodie after all this time. We met up just to give him the hoodie back briefly chatted about how good our relationships were going and that was it. He reached back out to me a few months later wanted to check in and see if single or if I was still in a relationship. (He just gotten out of a relationship) I told him if anything it would have to be strictly platonic because I was in a relationship and if he couldn’t keep it that way then it was be best if we didn’t talk. He agreed that it would be platonic. We briefly chatted a few times a months just normal how are you and what not messages. (T later told me that he never really wanted to be just platonic friends and was just waiting for his moment when my relationship with J would be over) My relationship with J eventually ended we were just at different stages of our lives. T and I started to talk more and it lead to more flirtatious conversations. Unfortunately I am currently locked into my lease contract with J and all the bills are in my name. I can’t really move or afford to pay double rent. J and I are currently roommates and sleep in separate rooms. As T and I got more serious I started to talk to J about T and see how things would work if one of us wanted to bring someone home. J got really upset and became very toxic and started to make my home life hell. He was constantly stressing me out whether if was starting random fights or being late on his share of the rent. It got so bad sometimes to the point of where I couldn’t afford groceries. I started to get so stressed and overwhelmed it physically made me sick. One time I had gotten so sick I was put on bed rest for a week. I talked to T about J and how my home life took a horrible turn. What used to be simple conversations with T just turned into how to get J out the house or how he was just going to have to deal with the fact that I moved on. In theory it sounds great but for my health and mental well being it was a really bad idea. Legally I couldn’t get J out or even evict him and unless he physically hurt/abused or threaten me there wasn’t much I could do. I decided that I just needed a few days away from everyone so I told T I needed some space. T later texted me saying that he was going to move on. I finally responded to T two days later saying that I respect his choice and that if he really wanted to find someone else he could. T and I talked and he said he just said it in the heat of the moment. T and I talked about being a family and me being his wife. My health got so bad from the amount of stress I was going through I ended up in the hospital twice in one week. After my second hospital visit I decided to break things off with T temporarily while I focused on my getting my health in better place so T and I could be in better place. He said he understood and would by my side and loved me no matter what. When I first said I needed a break I thought it would take a month at most. During the time away from T my home life did improve a little J started keeping to himself more and ignoring me. Which I couldn’t be any happier about. Also during that time I became even sicker during those months I had a miscarriage and bleed on my period for almost two months. (I’ve been on birth control for a long time and didn’t even know I was pregnant till the miscarriage happened.) I also got another diagnosis about my health. I spiraled quickly. I only had a miscarriage one other time in life and when I was sexually assaulted by someone I knew. I felt so alone I didn’t really have any friends to talk to so I just dealt with everything by myself. I spent days, weeks thinking about the miscarriage. Do I tell T about the miscarriage? Is it worth it? He wasn’t really ready for kids. We weren’t really ready for kids and there was a lot of things I was still working through. T and I had things of our own that we needed to work such as creating a more stable relationship that wasn’t so messy and finding a place together. I couldn’t stop thinking about T. I missed him. Seeing him. Being around him they way he made me feel safe. I finally deiced to reach out to T because I felt like I was in a semi better place. I wanted to work on us if there could be an us. I still wasn’t sure if I should tell him about the miscarriage. I found myself smiling watching in name pop up on my phone. T and I conversation were ok. T did mention that he was upset and felt betrayed by me. Apart of me felt hurt by this because I felt like he felt like I should have put him before my mental and physical wellbeing. One day while messaging T I forgot my phone in kitchen and J found out that I was talking to T again and had a complete melt down. I made and impulsive decision that I deeply regret and told T that it might be better if I wasn’t in his life. I just started to get better and couldn’t go back to toxic home life. I didn’t want to end up in the hospital again. My doctors were worried about the long-term effects of the stress. The amount of stress I was under it was going to kill me. I don’t want to jeopardize my health just to be happy but I don’t want to miss out on the guy I love. I tried reaching out to T later that day to talk about everything but he didn’t respond. I thought maybe he just needed space so I reached out a few days later then a few more and a few more till finally a month has passed and I called him and left him a voicemail asking him to talk. He said he wants nothing more to do with me and that I am too toxic to be with. Random things I didn’t mention T said the choice was always me. If I would have mentioned having feelings for him when I gave him the hoodie back that he would of left his current relationship for me. If he could define the person he wanted to be with it would be me. He held onto old pictures of me from the first time we dated even after he got a new phone. Apart of me waited so long to reach back out to him because I wasn’t in the best space to complete commit to him with a relationship. I was also ashamed and felt like failure because I wasn’t completely better. He doesn’t know that J being toxic again is reason why I made the impulsive decision to push him away.) I guess I’m just looking on advice or anything thoughts. I still love T greatly.

It's ironic that in this day and age with the internet so accessible and social media holding so much significance over everything everyone does, that corporate america (or should i say corporate taiwan) still thinks it's ok to condemn workplace abuse (emotionally & physically). Me being naive running to HR for help but HR going directly to my supervisors and ganging up on me. Oh how silly, I guess they didn't realize who they just made their public enemy #1. Where should I even begin? Wow the endless possibilities I have here huh well I guess lets just start rocking the boat by talking about how OSHA is a gimmick and why even exist when everyone working in TSMC Arizona are in a office with unsafe working conditions every single day yet when reported to OSHA they do absolutely nothing about it. Let me put into words for you since I can't share with you any pictures. Imagine working in a office that isn't even nearly remote close to being completed and their is so much construction going on everyday you literally are either inhaling silica dust or hear drilling sounds pierced in your ears, vibrations under your foot for 12 hours on end. TSMC when first beginning their Arizona project had rented temporary office spaces that were only allowed a maximum amount of occupancy on each floor they rented but do you think they even cared about that? Nope, everyday the temp. offices were crammed so full that people were practically sitting on top of each other and shoved into random spaces not even real legal office spaces just empty areas that upper management decided "Yeah ok, that works lets just shove them there." Later on mid march when the official TSMC AZ offices announced they would start moving people in everyone was so stoked, thinking we would finally get proper office spaces, our own seating real lunchrooms accessible bathroom etc everything + anything a real billion dollar company office should have. Instead to our disappointment we were left with no running water, bathrooms that can flush but you can not wash your hands, sinks and water fountains that dispensed brown water when you tried using them every other month we have notices of water stopping to not use the bathroom and bring our own water.......12 HOUR SHIFTS WITH NO BATHROOM? In the middle of the desert? How on earth is this ethical. Not to mention the office is either burning hot like the desert air or freezing like alaska and when we asked for something to be done upper management just replied "Wear bigger jackets" So you had hundreds of employees sitting in a below freezing office 12 hours a day with heavy thick winter coats IN THE MIDDLE OF APRIL IN ARIZONA??? I was amazed anyone in Arizona owned winter coats. I literally got sick 4 times back to back working in that condition, I was so cold one time my fingers froze and stiffened up so bad I couldn't type anymore I had to keep rubbing them together inside my jacket until they warmed up enough to continue working. Look what I am trying to say is that a lot is happening inside TSMC Arizona that so many people do not hear or know about so I will gladly be the one to update you all because I want change I want a safe work environment for me and my colleagues I want TSMC to take accountability and until they do I want to be the one to expose what they're really like, what is really happening behind closed doors. Here below is a brief update list of all the that has happened from the day they allowed employees to work inside the official F21 site.
- on a daily tsmc spends about $300,000 to their contractors and vendors like ABM who are hired to work on site to help with this project but what tsmc themselves don't even know is that lately we have been having evacuations almost every week sometimes even as far as twice a week but they're not even real evacuations concerns! they are occuring because ABM workers have gotten smart and realized if they blow the emergency airhorn it will create a chaos and we have to evacuate the whole entire building for about an hour each time because there are like hundreds and hundreds of workers everywhere on each floor so it takes so long for everyone to get out safely and by the time the entire evacuation is over they come back its lunch time and then boom at 2 they go home. not only has this been happening so often but on top of that people started paying people to take turns blowing the horn and standing guard so they don't get caught.
- ABM workers are being paid to do nothing literally every day. When walking on the construction site you have no idea how many people I see sitting by the door just napping or staring at the floor. We have to wear shoe covers in some parts of the building and there was 3 workers handing out shoes covers....3 WORKERS - literally just handing out one shoe cover. It does not take 3 people to complete this task. Sometimes i ask them what they were assigned to do and they said to just stand there in the hallway literally thats it, stand.
- One day my coworker took the elevator with some people and when the elevator reached the 4th floor the cable snapped and dropped to the 1st floor. He then was stuck in there for 40 mins because nobody could find out why or get the doors opened. But then when opened he told me they hurried him away, said they would pay him for the rest of the working day but to go home immediately. I didn't even hear about this until he had to tell me himself. TSMC could've done the right thing and issued out a warning to not use the elevator for the time being until deemed safe again but instead they shoved money into the problem and hid it from all of us working there.
- the FABs where the semiconductor chips are being made sometimes have areas where there are open holes or flooring that were not properly placed yet but because as always tsmc prioritizes money not safety they rushed engineers to go inside and start working immediately and one day one of the engineers fell into these holes. Luckily he is fine! But it really could've been a lot worse
- Contractors working in these FABS are not near or have any drinking water accessible to them all day while working inside but the temperatures in these places sometimes go as high as 90 degrees inside because there is no working electricity so there is no proper airflow or windows so they are literally being suffocated in these confined covered spaces and have to wear cleanroom suites so they are so hot and humid too.
- there are no bathrooms in these places so we have found many water bottles full of pee lying around inside the FABs on top of that they were now being tossed and moved around so much when i was driving to work last week i saw a water bottle filled with yellow liquid sitting in the parking space under the hot desert sun
- the fbi had to be called in because we had one week where there was 3 fires and the police questioned that these fires were starting to be intentional and someone was risking everyones life by starting real fires on site
- a angry worker had a fight with one of the taiwanese worker that had just flown in from taiwan and that american grabbed a steel pipe and hit the taiwanese assignee over the head and he was sent to the hospital. Yet again we were not made aware of this situation and tsmc tried to hide it keep it hush hush to protect themselves not protect us
- are you ready for this one?
an employee last week brought a real PISTOL INTO tsmc. INTO. FOR 12 HOURS.... there was an active gun inside this building and the worst part of this all was that we have a whole x-ray machine + metal detectors 8 security guards working in the front more security inside the building and this employee managed to carry a whole gun inside TSMC Arizona he managed to get a whole gun inside past the metal detectors past the x-ray machines PAST the security guards who also scan you up and down when you walk inside. Now this is all made to public eye because he had gotten caught can you even imagine the employees who haven't gotten caught? If he was able to so easily bring a gun inside tsmc az then who's to say he was the first or will be the last? Who's to say there hasn't already been more or others.
Every day i go to work i feel constantly scared because they recently torn apart the ceilings above our heads so all the mechanical work the wirings the cables they all are hanging and dangling from above and i just feel like one day one of it is going to either fall or hurt me or my colleagues. Now i have to worry about my actual safety as well because they're just letting anyone bring anything up inside here. Make matters worse whats the point of all the security when TSMC Az has no security cameras working or on? They are literally all just for show the security cameras you see they are not being of use right now they don't work. Everyday our personal belongings are being stolen TSMC projectors that cost thousands of dollars are being stolen from meeting rooms, workers sneaking past wire cutters to this point where we locked our projectors to a cable and that cable is being cut and things still get stole. Anyways thats all i have for now, for today at least. Don't worry I will definitely be back even if nobody reads this i will continue to shout from the top of my lungs
GET REAL....TSMC AZ

Hi i am 27M I go through this weird thing like for example i have decided not to chase someone who isn't interested in me in last March . If i see doing that again i remind myself i shouldn't do that suddenly my mind asks question like why not ?. Now i have to explain psychologicaly and everything what will happen like an argument to the mind like it has forgotten the painful experience which has happened before. It will become big discussion like the reason i give my mind won't accept it fully or it will be satisfied.

Chapter 29

Chapter 30 Daniel vs Elohim/Cain son of the Demiurge

Cain began to form. His body blobbing as if something inside of him is moving like a cocoon. He fell face down to the marble ground, making a blood disgusting crunch on impact. Daniel stepped back as he witness Cain's body hatching like a deformed cocoon. The insides of his body shakes and moves all over, making a mixing sounds of flesh and bone. With one step back from Daniel, a snapping sound can be heard inside the body. Strong pale fingers cuts through the cocoon. Tearing off the coat to reveal a strong pale hand emerging from within. Dark blood, bones, and flesh spread on the marble floor.
A large growing creature rises from the cocoon of Cain. The creature is humanoid in shape and by far bulkier and muscular in size. Its skin is the color of burning flesh. Strong and brutal hands with rock like knuckles. Its legs are of a deer and the hooves looked to be stones of ancient hells. The head is by far one of the most resembled because its head is of a bear with antlers as its ears. Its eyes full of treacherous hatred as they stare into Daniel's eyes. Its teeth of darkness menacingly hungers for blood and death. The heart that which Jennifer saw in the beginning became visible before his eyes. Veins are pulsing around the heart, flowing with blood of a dark eldritch god.
This is it. This is the true and powerful form of the real Cain. Born from the demiurge, the beginning of ignorance and king of all gods. The never to be heir'd prince of all gods in existence. The blood of the jealous king. Cain, brother of Abel, returned to conquer all that exists and all that dares stand in his way. He is the darkness at the edges of universes.
Daniel. A man of metal and steel. His heart filled with hope and faith. Born from the man who was a world taker single handedly but then lives freely as a free man and a father. He is a man of hope and he rises to greater strength to raise others hope and defeat the evil that stands in their way of light. He is the lantern of hope in the darkest times.
Daniel rushes forward with a jab, but the target moved away super fast. Cain spun around with his claw raised and he caught Daniel in the chest. He then pushed him far away, making him soar in the speed like the falling star. There was no mountain nor anything, so his body kept soaring before he was hit in the head by Cain's powerful blow. Daniel's body roles down from the powerful impact that he struggles to stop rolling. Cain kicked him upwards and by the time Daniel's body was up to 15 feet, Cain threw his own chains at him. The chains wrapped fast tight on Daniel and Cain pulls down with instant strength. Daniel's body crushes to the marble ground but did not make a crush. The marble floor not broken nor impacted by the blow.
The cracking of Daniel's body is heard and he groans from the pain. Cain's teeth drools with hunger for such a brutal fight as he pulls Daniel's body forward with the chains in hand. Daniel's still strong and he tries to break free from the blood curdling chains. Cain threw him up in the air but as soon as Daniel was, he finally broke free from the chains and landed on the ground with the slam of his feet. That made impact, which Cain recoils a bit backwards.
Cain threw the chains at him. But Daniel learned his lesson. He caught the chains and wrapped his hands around it. He then pulls it with his strength, forcing Cain to be pulled towards him. By the time Cain is inches in front of him, he uppercuts his right fist with the chains wrapped around it. Cain's body soars into the sky. Then was pulled downwards by Daniel's force on the chains.
Daniel was about to swing his axe but he was hit in the head by Cain's soaring fist. His head impacted against the marbled floor. A flash of discomfort of dizziness explodes in his head. Trying so desperately get out of the dizzy state, he was unable to get up until Cain grabs his arm and threw him into the exosphere. The planet is the size of a thousand Jupiters and the atmosphere is 200,000 km above.
When he enters the exosphere, his dizziness stopped and he gained back his mind and conscious. It was too late for him to go back down because Cain caught him in the neck already in a fast pace. The soared through every planet and every galaxy conquered by Cain's power hungry hand. They're able to sustain and endure such high speed that should've been impossible. "This is all the galaxies I've conquered Daniel!! All together like a family of my own!!" He laughs demonically with a bears roar. His breath so foul that Daniel turned his head away from him.
Daniel kept punching at Cain's face. But as they arrived in a new world, Cain threw him down to the ground of the planet. Daniel's body crushing through the planet and the planet exploded. The planet's explosion grew into a massive size of a sphere shape that it destroys the 12 planets near it.
As the light of the explosion fades, Daniel regained his balance in space. He watches the discarded shards of the planets float in random directions. If this is the galaxy Cain conquered, are there innocent people living within these homes? There aren't any bodies nor anything alive around him nor resides near the planets shards.
He returned his focus on Cain and saw he was going to throw the gigantic shard of a planet right at him. When he threw the shard, it soars with such fast speed. The shard hits directly at Daniel. Daniel was stuck from the shards impact. He tries to move his arms and successfully places his hands on the gigantic shard. His feet burst blue flames as he pushes against the shard. The shard's forced weight was too hard for him to push but his hopes never stopped and kept growing as he pushes.
Cain watches the shard slowly turning to a stop. He waited for something to happen, until he was suddenly hit by the shard he threw. It was super fast that the shard broke into pieces right as they impacted Cain.
Daniel, now in front of Cain, punched him in the face massively hard that Cain soars downward, traveling through hundreds of galaxies. He finally lands to a planet that is something he never expected in the first place. The marbled floor all full of steel. The sky grey as ever but there are faces watching over him. Their faces are expressionless as they are the watchers of this world. Instead of emptiness, there are statues of the ancients and unknown gods never heard of before. Pillars scattered his surroundings, collapsed by some fall from something big.
Cain have forgotten this world even existed and became much excited. His muscles have intense from the excitement of this fight. The kind of fight he never could have enjoyed for many long years. This is unlike anything else he could've ever imagined. He began to laugh with the pleasure of the battle. So much opportunities for him to do here.
Daniel instantly arrived at the planet to find Cain gone. He looked around to see where did he go. He saw the faces in the sky watching him from above. They don't seem to be harmful. Only to watch. He saw another face facing at the opposite direction. He followed where it's looking at and saw Cain with a pillar on his shoulder.
Cain swings the longest and largest pillar directly to his target. The pillar impacted against Daniel's body with heavy precision that he was forcedly flew from it. He rolled by the time he landed on the ground. He got back up to see Cain was in the air, who was about to slam the pillar downward. He pushes himself away to which he avoided the heavy blow of the pillar. The pillar broke into pieces and Cain was looking at him with furious eyes of evil. The eyes never left its dark side.
They started to brawl with their fists. Exchanging blow after blow, some failed to strike, while others made impact with bruising fists. Cain then turns around and kicks Daniel with his hooves, making him soar off into the collapsed pillars from afar.
His body crushed through many rows of pillars, scattering broken pieces of them everywhere. His back slammed into a pillar that cracks behind him instead of breaking, due to the force of the impacts of the pillars he broke through. He stood on his knees, catching a bit of his breath, whilst Cain approaches him, walking with menacing intentions. "You still don't get it do you, Daniel? That 'goal' you are so hopeful to accomplish is nothing but lies! Everyone dies, what's the big deal! You're hoping to save everyone, to save all life but you don't even realize that we need people like me! I'm the one that can make a difference and you're in my way. But if you could just join me, we'll make the world a better place just like the apocaly-"
His sentence was interrupted by the incoming pillar. He swiped it off with the swing of his arms with ease, whilst he looks at Daniel in the eye. "You think that's going to work on me? Try harder!" An axe sparked from Daniel's hand and he jumps forward, ready to swing. He knew that approaching him with a swing of his axe would mean too late. His shield sparks on his forearm just in time before Cain's aggressive fist strikes.
Daniel deflected his strike and swung his axe at Cain's left side of his abdomen in a direct hit. He held the handle with both hands and pushed him back in about 3 feet away while Cain tries to get balance. He kicked Cain in the abdomen, pulling out his axe and ready to strike again. Cain tries to catch him but Daniel ducks down, moving away. Cain then got struck in the back by the sharp edges of Daniel's axe.
Daniel jumped up and kicked him with both feet, impacting Cain's back with a brutal bone crack. Breaking his spinal cords. Cain did not fall so easily. He turns around with the look of mockery and evil. His teeth gnarled with pleasure, enjoying the pain he gets. "You know. We're not that much different, you and I."
Daniel became so exhausted and injured that he could only say one word at that moment. He was getting weak but slowly healing. The healing was, for some reason, slowed down twice than it normally does. "Why?"
The chuckles coming from Cain's voice is enough to make Daniel annoyed. "You and I took so much pain. And yet, our bodies heal from our broken, burnt, infected, and bruised body. We heal so rapidly that it's making us invulnerable to everything else. We are on this to make a better world! A better place!! And here we are!! Fighting for WHO IS THE STRONGEST TO GET OUT ALIVE!!"
He raised his arms in praise of his own plan and efforts. looking up into the sky, to watch the galaxies before him shine above him as his crown of his own justice. Daniel was not surprised. He knew what he wanted. He knew what he was doing to the world and other galaxies. Cain's ideals and principles are the means of becoming a tyrant of a new world of his own image. That makes Daniel sick.
"I'm not like you."
Cain looked at Daniel with a baffled expression. The sound of stretching The words he spoke caught his attention. "What?"
"I did all this, not for making a better world. I did all of this to save everything that holds dear to life. The people, nature, homes, all of them. I don't want to control people nor become some sick king to them. I want to give people the hope and faith. And we're not the same. Because all you do is make your own sick fantasy come to life."
Cain's face turned into madness, as way a bear gets turned into a mutated creature. His teeth drools with hatred and so is his eyes. The antlers glowed with the flames of blood as the malice grew in his chest. He slams his palm against his chest while looking at Daniel dead in the eye. "You are a fool!" He started to groan as he grabs the handle growing out of his chest. He pulled the handle with his strength. The more he kept pulling, the more pain he feels all over his body.
Finally, he pulled the staff from his chest with pleasure coursing through his heart. The staff is made of ancient hellish stones with the blood of his enemies and victims coursing through the cracks around it. He began to laugh with such menacing energy. He raised the staff up high. Two large blades emerges from the 2 sides of the staff, which is actually an axe. The blade is sharp, flowing with blood and hatred. The distorted face of his victims slides up on the blade like a reverse waterfall, until it disappears into the top of the axe.
He raised his axe high with both hands and jumped forward to strike Daniel. Daniel jumped up, avoiding the axe. He stomps on Cain's bear head and jumps off of it. By the time he lands on the ground, he turned around and deflected the blow of the axe. Screams can be heard when the impact was made, which makes Daniel spooked.
Cain raised his axe as he gains strength to chop Daniel down. Daniel was slow and he knew he won't strike in time. So he jumped away from the blow, but was then grabbed in the head. Cain punched him in the abdomen, making him soar far behind. Daniel's back hits against the pillar wall, making cracks all over it but still not break. He found himself next to a big stone of the pillar. He struck his axe into the stone, making it stick into the cracks. Then spun around and threw his axe with the stone attached, directly at Cain. He was both struck by the stone and the axe. The stone breaks from impact and the axe cuts into his chest.
He rips it off of him and threw it away. The axe flew back to Daniel's hand with the sound of echoing metal. They raised their axes and threw them at each other. The 2 axes clashed together, making a loud clang of metal with the painful screams of the unholy blade. The axes stays attached from the impact. "Why are you not releasing your anger!? Release it!! Show me the monster from your temple!!"
They rushed at each other. By the time they are 10 feet away from each other, the axes returned to their hands. They struck their blades of the axe at each other, at the same time with such powerful and intense power. The sound of ringing and metal hitting against each other is so loud that the sound of them reaches through hundreds of galaxies under a second. Daniel's axe broke into pieces and they all fell to disintegration. Daniel knelt down in pain as the sound was too loud for him to bear. Even for Cain as well that his antlers are vibrating by the powerful doppler effect.
Cain roars in the painful fury with the screams of the victims. Daniel went forward for a hit but was too slow that he got slammed in the torso by Cain's powerful swing of his forearm. Daniel's body broke through every pillar and escaped into the hugest space. He slides to the marbled floor, then regained his stance. But it was too late as Cain grabbed his neck with his bear right hand. Daniel tried to lift his hands up but the force of power holds him in place. Cain is using his power of telekinesis to hold him as he struggles to get free.
"Well. Looks like your hopes have lost. Look around you and tell me. Did anything change? Was it worth your hopes on this pathetic goal of yours? 'To save everything that holds dear to life. The people, nature, homes.' 'To give people the hope and faith.' Was it really that much big of a deal?" He scoffs, then laughs mockingly at Daniel's fading face. Slowly, the tears appeared beneath Daniel's eyes as Cain lives on, and he dies. He can't say a word. The grip of Cain's hand was too tight for him to speak. His vision beginning to fade as the world turns into hell. His friends are going to die hopeless. They're helpless without each other and once they've finally died, Cain will have their souls for eternity. Same goes Daniel. And all of life itself. The shame and pain in his chest grew as the guilt infects his mind and soul. There is no hope anymore. James, Steven, Jennifer. I'm so sorry.
"Well. Nice kno-"
Then suddenly, time has stopped. A bright light flashes in front of Daniel's eyes. The tight grip around his neck is gone and the force with it.
Chapter 31

Dear Reddit, Will you please translate this song to English for me?
Tão Bem, Reis do Nada
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Muito obrigada 😍

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whenever my mom and i go out together, which we rarely do because she refuses to be seen with me, she literally will never walk beside me. ive seen her walk so far behind that ive lost her or ive seen her walk in front of me so far that she was practically speeding. she doesn’t cover this up too, she openly says that she doesnt like being seen with me,
and u wanna know the reason? religon purposes. im not gonna say what religon she practices because i dont want to get judged but i live in a pretty small area where everyone knows everyone, sure.. i dont dress the most modest or put together but legit every teenage girl dresses the same as me. no girl is getting looks when she wears a tank top or a crop top but my mom thinks i will? shes also really concerned about me getting recognized.
it’s so far fetched where she refuses to post me anywhere on her socials, i dont care at all it doesnt bother me but she’ll openly post my other siblings, and anyone to go along with it. The worst thing she did though was crop me out of a family photo, because i was wearing a lowcut dress.
ive also been uninvited from my sisters wedding because she was too worried id get judged for how i would dress.
i know she loves me, she takes care of me and she feeds me and drives me to school every morning, she makes sure im physically okay but, that doesnt stop me from feeling a little bit sad when she openly admits that she would rather do anything then go out with me.

Recently I have been having occasional issues with my PC
These issue equate too having occasional black screening. This black screening happens and my monitor displays no signal. What ever game I am playing seems to lose audio leading to me believing it’s crashed. However discord or music audio remains. And the pc does NOT shut off and I am force too manually restart it.
I don’t believe there is any specific time or reason too this black screening everything from Rainbow 6 siege too mine-craft has had it happen. However it’s not consistent and I would say rate.
This is fixed when shutting down and restarting the Computer.
Now I have a white VGA light on my motherboard even after I re sat the card.
I use power cable extensions with a 750X Corsair PSU
I have replaced the display port cable to no avail.
Finally I decided to attempt too reinstall my graphics drivers and using DDU in safe mode after booting up and reinstalling drivers all my taskbar icons changed too the white page with green box thing and the desktop icons disappeared.
To remedy this I was forced too update too windows 11 after all the common recommended steps. Clearing cache. Etc. very odd bug.
Basically my Pc is in a bit of a mess and am looking for guidance based on the symptoms shown how too go about it.
I have yet too update the bios version of my mother board as the white light came on a month or two ago and updating the bios seemed to clear it up. However I am reluctant too believe that is the cause however a new bios version is avalible and I am wound wrong if I need a new bios for the windows 11 update. However i feel this is unlikely.
Finally I “believe” I am seeing performance hits and lower fps than normal however due too all the other problems as you can imagine I’m sort of a PC hypochondriac, looking for problems and normally try not to be so conscious of my FPS in games so don’t concrete know what the original performance was it just feels like less.
Please help.

Hey! I was wondering what exactly causes this crash to happen. I'm using the Curseforge app to use Optifabric, though I've never had a problem with any of the mods on there, so I'm assuming it's an OF issue.
[21:38:27] [main/INFO]: Loading Minecraft 1.19.4 with Fabric Loader 0.14.21
[21:38:27] [main/INFO]: Fabric is preparing JARs on first launch, this may take a few seconds...
[21:38:27] [main/INFO]: Loading 55 mods:

`- fabric-api 0.82.0+1.19.4` 

-- fabric-api-base 0.4.26+1e9487d2f4
-- fabric-api-lookup-api-v1 1.6.27+504944c8f4
-- fabric-biome-api-v1 13.0.8+348a9c64f4
-- fabric-block-api-v1 1.0.7+e022e5d1f4
-- fabric-blockrenderlayer-v1 1.1.36+c2e6f674f4
-- fabric-client-tags-api-v1 1.0.17+504944c8f4
-- fabric-command-api-v1 1.2.29+f71b366ff4
-- fabric-command-api-v2 2.2.8+504944c8f4
-- fabric-commands-v0 0.2.46+df3654b3f4
-- fabric-containers-v0 0.1.56+df3654b3f4
-- fabric-content-registries-v0 3.5.11+ae0966baf4
-- fabric-convention-tags-v1 1.5.1+fe8721bef4
-- fabric-crash-report-info-v1 0.2.16+aeb40ebef4
-- fabric-data-generation-api-v1 11.4.2+504944c8f4
-- fabric-dimensions-v1 2.1.47+7f87f8faf4
-- fabric-entity-events-v1 1.5.15+504944c8f4
-- fabric-events-interaction-v0 0.5.1+76ba65ebf4
-- fabric-events-lifecycle-v0 0.2.54+df3654b3f4
-- fabric-game-rule-api-v1 1.0.34+a1ccd7bff4
-- fabric-item-api-v1 2.1.19+504944c8f4
-- fabric-item-group-api-v1 3.0.7+043f9acff4
-- fabric-key-binding-api-v1 1.0.34+504944c8f4
-- fabric-keybindings-v0 0.2.32+df3654b3f4
-- fabric-lifecycle-events-v1 2.2.17+1e9487d2f4
-- fabric-loot-api-v2 1.1.29+75e98211f4
-- fabric-loot-tables-v1 1.1.33+9e7660c6f4
-- fabric-message-api-v1 5.1.3+504944c8f4
-- fabric-mining-level-api-v1 2.1.41+49abcf7ef4
-- fabric-models-v0 0.3.32+504944c8f4
-- fabric-networking-api-v1 1.3.3+504944c8f4
-- fabric-networking-v0 0.3.43+df3654b3f4
-- fabric-object-builder-api-v1 7.0.5+504944c8f4
-- fabric-particles-v1 1.0.25+f1e4495bf4
-- fabric-recipe-api-v1 1.0.10+a1ccd7bff4
-- fabric-registry-sync-v0 2.2.2+504944c8f4
-- fabric-renderer-api-v1 2.3.0+52cca24ef4
-- fabric-renderer-indigo 1.3.0+52cca24ef4
-- fabric-renderer-registries-v1 3.2.40+df3654b3f4
-- fabric-rendering-data-attachment-v1 0.3.30+afca2f3ef4
-- fabric-rendering-fluids-v1 3.0.23+504944c8f4
-- fabric-rendering-v0 1.1.43+df3654b3f4
-- fabric-rendering-v1 2.1.3+504944c8f4
-- fabric-resource-conditions-api-v1 2.3.2+e6c7d4eef4
-- fabric-resource-loader-v0 0.11.4+5ade3c38f4
-- fabric-screen-api-v1 1.0.47+3bd4ab0ff4
-- fabric-screen-handler-api-v1 1.3.22+504944c8f4
-- fabric-sound-api-v1 1.0.10+504944c8f4
-- fabric-transfer-api-v1 3.2.0+80d07a0af4
\-- fabric-transitive-access-wideners-v1 3.1.1+b4a333d6f4

`- fabricloader 0.14.21` `- java 17` `- minecraft 1.19.4` `- optifabric 1.13.24` 

\-- mm 2.3
[21:38:28] [main/INFO]: SpongePowered MIXIN Subsystem Version=0.8.5 Source=file:/C:/Users/Jake%20Cretara/curseforge/minecraft/Install/libraries/net/fabricmc/sponge-mixin/0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5/sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar Service=Knot/Fabric Env=CLIENT
[21:38:29] [main/INFO]: Compatibility level set to JAVA_16
[21:38:29] [main/INFO]: Compatibility level set to JAVA_17
[21:38:37] [main/ERROR]: Injection error: LVT in net/minecraft/class_757::method_3192(FJZ)V has incompatible changes at opcode 599 in callback fabric-screen-api-v1.mixins.json:GameRendererMixin from mod fabric-screen-api-v1->@Inject::onBeforeRenderScreen(FJZLorg/spongepowered/asm/mixin/injection/callback/CallbackInfo;IILnet/minecraft/class_4587;Lnet/minecraft/class_4587;)V.
Expected: [I, I, Lnet/minecraft/class_4587;, Lnet/minecraft/class_4587;]
Found: [I, I, Lnet/minecraft/class_1041;, F]
Available: [I, I, Lnet/minecraft/class_1041;, F, Lorg/joml/Matrix4f;, Lnet/minecraft/class_4587;, Lnet/minecraft/class_4587;, Ljava/lang/Throwable;, Lnet/minecraft/class_128;, Lnet/minecraft/class_129;]
[21:38:37] [main/ERROR]: Injection error: LVT in net/minecraft/class_757::method_3192(FJZ)V has incompatible changes at opcode 610 in callback fabric-screen-api-v1.mixins.json:GameRendererMixin from mod fabric-screen-api-v1->@Inject::onAfterRenderScreen(FJZLorg/spongepowered/asm/mixin/injection/callback/CallbackInfo;IILnet/minecraft/class_4587;Lnet/minecraft/class_4587;)V.
Expected: [I, I, Lnet/minecraft/class_4587;, Lnet/minecraft/class_4587;]
Found: [I, I, Lnet/minecraft/class_1041;, F]
Available: [I, I, Lnet/minecraft/class_1041;, F, Lorg/joml/Matrix4f;, Lnet/minecraft/class_4587;, Lnet/minecraft/class_4587;, Ljava/lang/Throwable;, Lnet/minecraft/class_128;, Lnet/minecraft/class_129;]
[21:38:37] [main/ERROR]: Mixin apply for mod optifabric failed optifabric.compat.fabric-screen-api.newerer-mixins.json:GameRendererNewererMixin from mod optifabric -> net.minecraft.class_757: org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.throwables.InvalidMixinException Unexpecteded IllegalStateException whilst transforming the mixin class: [PostApply Phase -> optifabric.compat.fabric-screen-api.newerer-mixins.json:GameRendererNewererMixin from mod optifabric -> Plugin Post-Application]
org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.throwables.InvalidMixinException: Unexpecteded IllegalStateException whilst transforming the mixin class: [PostApply Phase -> optifabric.compat.fabric-screen-api.newerer-mixins.json:GameRendererNewererMixin from mod optifabric -> Plugin Post-Application]

`at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTargetContext.postApply(`[`MixinTargetContext.java:1286`](https://MixinTargetContext.java:1286)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinApplicatorStandard.apply(`[`MixinApplicatorStandard.java:346`](https://MixinApplicatorStandard.java:346)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.TargetClassContext.apply(`[`TargetClassContext.java:421`](https://TargetClassContext.java:421)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.TargetClassContext.applyMixins(`[`TargetClassContext.java:403`](https://TargetClassContext.java:403)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.applyMixins(`[`MixinProcessor.java:363`](https://MixinProcessor.java:363)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClass(`[`MixinTransformer.java:234`](https://MixinTransformer.java:234)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClassBytes(`[`MixinTransformer.java:202`](https://MixinTransformer.java:202)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:422`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:422)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.tryLoadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:323`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:323)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.loadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:218`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:218)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassLoader.loadClass(`[`KnotClassLoader.java:112`](https://KnotClassLoader.java:112)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at java.lang.ClassLoader.loadClass(`[`ClassLoader.java:520`](https://ClassLoader.java:520)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields0(Native Method) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.privateGetDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:3297`](https://Class.java:3297)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:2371`](https://Class.java:2371)`) ~[?:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.FieldLocatorTypes.(`[`FieldLocatorTypes.java:25`](https://FieldLocatorTypes.java:25)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.Reflector.(`[`Reflector.java:503`](https://Reflector.java:503)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_568(class_128.java:175) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_24305(class_128.java:345) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(`[`Main.java:152`](https://Main.java:152)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21-1.19.4.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(`[`MinecraftGameProvider.java:468`](https://MinecraftGameProvider.java:468)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.Knot.launch(`[`Knot.java:74`](https://Knot.java:74)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClient.main(`[`KnotClient.java:23`](https://KnotClient.java:23)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` 

Caused by: java.lang.IllegalStateException: Cannot find shim method onBeforeRenderScreen(FJZLorg/spongepowered/asm/mixin/injection/callback/CallbackInfo;IILnet/minecraft/class_4587;)V in net/fabricmc/fabric/mixin/screen/GameRendererMixin

`at me.modmuss50.optifabric.compat.InterceptingMixinPlugin.lambda$postApply$2(`[`InterceptingMixinPlugin.java:135`](https://InterceptingMixinPlugin.java:135)`) ~[optifabric-1.13.24.jar:?]` `at java.util.stream.Collectors.lambda$uniqKeysMapAccumulator$1(`[`Collectors.java:180`](https://Collectors.java:180)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.ReduceOps$3ReducingSink.accept(`[`ReduceOps.java:169`](https://ReduceOps.java:169)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.ReferencePipeline$2$1.accept(`[`ReferencePipeline.java:179`](https://ReferencePipeline.java:179)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.ArrayList$ArrayListSpliterator.forEachRemaining(`[`ArrayList.java:1625`](https://ArrayList.java:1625)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.copyInto(`[`AbstractPipeline.java:509`](https://AbstractPipeline.java:509)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.wrapAndCopyInto(`[`AbstractPipeline.java:499`](https://AbstractPipeline.java:499)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.ReduceOps$ReduceOp.evaluateSequential(`[`ReduceOps.java:921`](https://ReduceOps.java:921)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.evaluate(`[`AbstractPipeline.java:234`](https://AbstractPipeline.java:234)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.ReferencePipeline.collect(`[`ReferencePipeline.java:682`](https://ReferencePipeline.java:682)`) ~[?:?]` `at me.modmuss50.optifabric.compat.InterceptingMixinPlugin.postApply(`[`InterceptingMixinPlugin.java:131`](https://InterceptingMixinPlugin.java:131)`) ~[optifabric-1.13.24.jar:?]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.PluginHandle.postApply(`[`PluginHandle.java:189`](https://PluginHandle.java:189)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinInfo.postApply(`[`MixinInfo.java:1372`](https://MixinInfo.java:1372)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTargetContext.postApply(`[`MixinTargetContext.java:1275`](https://MixinTargetContext.java:1275)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `... 22 more` 

[21:38:37] [main/ERROR]: Minecraft has crashed!
net.fabricmc.loader.impl.FormattedException: java.lang.ExceptionInInitializerError

`at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.FormattedException.ofLocalized(`[`FormattedException.java:63`](https://FormattedException.java:63)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(`[`MinecraftGameProvider.java:470`](https://MinecraftGameProvider.java:470)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.Knot.launch(`[`Knot.java:74`](https://Knot.java:74)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClient.main(`[`KnotClient.java:23`](https://KnotClient.java:23)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` 

Caused by: java.lang.ExceptionInInitializerError

`at net.minecraft.class_128.method_568(class_128.java:175) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_24305(class_128.java:345) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(`[`Main.java:152`](https://Main.java:152)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21-1.19.4.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(`[`MinecraftGameProvider.java:468`](https://MinecraftGameProvider.java:468)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `... 2 more` 

Caused by: java.lang.RuntimeException: Mixin transformation of net.minecraft.class_757 failed

`at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:427`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:427)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.tryLoadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:323`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:323)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.loadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:218`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:218)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassLoader.loadClass(`[`KnotClassLoader.java:112`](https://KnotClassLoader.java:112)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at java.lang.ClassLoader.loadClass(`[`ClassLoader.java:520`](https://ClassLoader.java:520)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields0(Native Method) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.privateGetDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:3297`](https://Class.java:3297)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:2371`](https://Class.java:2371)`) ~[?:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.FieldLocatorTypes.(`[`FieldLocatorTypes.java:25`](https://FieldLocatorTypes.java:25)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.Reflector.(`[`Reflector.java:503`](https://Reflector.java:503)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_568(class_128.java:175) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_24305(class_128.java:345) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(`[`Main.java:152`](https://Main.java:152)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21-1.19.4.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(`[`MinecraftGameProvider.java:468`](https://MinecraftGameProvider.java:468)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `... 2 more` 

Caused by: org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.throwables.MixinTransformerError: An unexpected critical error was encountered

`at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.applyMixins(`[`MixinProcessor.java:392`](https://MixinProcessor.java:392)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClass(`[`MixinTransformer.java:234`](https://MixinTransformer.java:234)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClassBytes(`[`MixinTransformer.java:202`](https://MixinTransformer.java:202)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:422`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:422)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.tryLoadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:323`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:323)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.loadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:218`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:218)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassLoader.loadClass(`[`KnotClassLoader.java:112`](https://KnotClassLoader.java:112)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at java.lang.ClassLoader.loadClass(`[`ClassLoader.java:520`](https://ClassLoader.java:520)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields0(Native Method) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.privateGetDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:3297`](https://Class.java:3297)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:2371`](https://Class.java:2371)`) ~[?:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.FieldLocatorTypes.(`[`FieldLocatorTypes.java:25`](https://FieldLocatorTypes.java:25)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.Reflector.(`[`Reflector.java:503`](https://Reflector.java:503)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_568(class_128.java:175) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_24305(class_128.java:345) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(`[`Main.java:152`](https://Main.java:152)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21-1.19.4.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(`[`MinecraftGameProvider.java:468`](https://MinecraftGameProvider.java:468)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `... 2 more` 

Caused by: org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.throwables.MixinApplyError: Mixin [optifabric.compat.fabric-screen-api.newerer-mixins.json:GameRendererNewererMixin from mod optifabric] from phase [DEFAULT] in config [optifabric.compat.fabric-screen-api.newerer-mixins.json] FAILED during APPLY

`at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.handleMixinError(`[`MixinProcessor.java:638`](https://MixinProcessor.java:638)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.handleMixinApplyError(`[`MixinProcessor.java:589`](https://MixinProcessor.java:589)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.applyMixins(`[`MixinProcessor.java:379`](https://MixinProcessor.java:379)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClass(`[`MixinTransformer.java:234`](https://MixinTransformer.java:234)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClassBytes(`[`MixinTransformer.java:202`](https://MixinTransformer.java:202)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:422`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:422)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.tryLoadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:323`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:323)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.loadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:218`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:218)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassLoader.loadClass(`[`KnotClassLoader.java:112`](https://KnotClassLoader.java:112)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at java.lang.ClassLoader.loadClass(`[`ClassLoader.java:520`](https://ClassLoader.java:520)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields0(Native Method) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.privateGetDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:3297`](https://Class.java:3297)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:2371`](https://Class.java:2371)`) ~[?:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.FieldLocatorTypes.(`[`FieldLocatorTypes.java:25`](https://FieldLocatorTypes.java:25)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.Reflector.(`[`Reflector.java:503`](https://Reflector.java:503)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_568(class_128.java:175) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_24305(class_128.java:345) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(`[`Main.java:152`](https://Main.java:152)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21-1.19.4.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(`[`MinecraftGameProvider.java:468`](https://MinecraftGameProvider.java:468)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `... 2 more` 

Caused by: org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.throwables.InvalidMixinException: Unexpecteded IllegalStateException whilst transforming the mixin class: [PostApply Phase -> optifabric.compat.fabric-screen-api.newerer-mixins.json:GameRendererNewererMixin from mod optifabric -> Plugin Post-Application]

`at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTargetContext.postApply(`[`MixinTargetContext.java:1286`](https://MixinTargetContext.java:1286)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinApplicatorStandard.apply(`[`MixinApplicatorStandard.java:346`](https://MixinApplicatorStandard.java:346)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.TargetClassContext.apply(`[`TargetClassContext.java:421`](https://TargetClassContext.java:421)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.TargetClassContext.applyMixins(`[`TargetClassContext.java:403`](https://TargetClassContext.java:403)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.applyMixins(`[`MixinProcessor.java:363`](https://MixinProcessor.java:363)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClass(`[`MixinTransformer.java:234`](https://MixinTransformer.java:234)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClassBytes(`[`MixinTransformer.java:202`](https://MixinTransformer.java:202)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:422`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:422)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.tryLoadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:323`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:323)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.loadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:218`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:218)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassLoader.loadClass(`[`KnotClassLoader.java:112`](https://KnotClassLoader.java:112)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at java.lang.ClassLoader.loadClass(`[`ClassLoader.java:520`](https://ClassLoader.java:520)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields0(Native Method) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.privateGetDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:3297`](https://Class.java:3297)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:2371`](https://Class.java:2371)`) ~[?:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.FieldLocatorTypes.(`[`FieldLocatorTypes.java:25`](https://FieldLocatorTypes.java:25)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.Reflector.(`[`Reflector.java:503`](https://Reflector.java:503)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_568(class_128.java:175) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_24305(class_128.java:345) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(`[`Main.java:152`](https://Main.java:152)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21-1.19.4.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(`[`MinecraftGameProvider.java:468`](https://MinecraftGameProvider.java:468)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `... 2 more` 

Caused by: java.lang.IllegalStateException: Cannot find shim method onBeforeRenderScreen(FJZLorg/spongepowered/asm/mixin/injection/callback/CallbackInfo;IILnet/minecraft/class_4587;)V in net/fabricmc/fabric/mixin/screen/GameRendererMixin

`at me.modmuss50.optifabric.compat.InterceptingMixinPlugin.lambda$postApply$2(`[`InterceptingMixinPlugin.java:135`](https://InterceptingMixinPlugin.java:135)`) ~[optifabric-1.13.24.jar:?]` `at java.util.stream.Collectors.lambda$uniqKeysMapAccumulator$1(`[`Collectors.java:180`](https://Collectors.java:180)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.ReduceOps$3ReducingSink.accept(`[`ReduceOps.java:169`](https://ReduceOps.java:169)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.ReferencePipeline$2$1.accept(`[`ReferencePipeline.java:179`](https://ReferencePipeline.java:179)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.ArrayList$ArrayListSpliterator.forEachRemaining(`[`ArrayList.java:1625`](https://ArrayList.java:1625)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.copyInto(`[`AbstractPipeline.java:509`](https://AbstractPipeline.java:509)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.wrapAndCopyInto(`[`AbstractPipeline.java:499`](https://AbstractPipeline.java:499)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.ReduceOps$ReduceOp.evaluateSequential(`[`ReduceOps.java:921`](https://ReduceOps.java:921)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.AbstractPipeline.evaluate(`[`AbstractPipeline.java:234`](https://AbstractPipeline.java:234)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.util.stream.ReferencePipeline.collect(`[`ReferencePipeline.java:682`](https://ReferencePipeline.java:682)`) ~[?:?]` `at me.modmuss50.optifabric.compat.InterceptingMixinPlugin.postApply(`[`InterceptingMixinPlugin.java:131`](https://InterceptingMixinPlugin.java:131)`) ~[optifabric-1.13.24.jar:?]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.PluginHandle.postApply(`[`PluginHandle.java:189`](https://PluginHandle.java:189)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinInfo.postApply(`[`MixinInfo.java:1372`](https://MixinInfo.java:1372)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTargetContext.postApply(`[`MixinTargetContext.java:1275`](https://MixinTargetContext.java:1275)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinApplicatorStandard.apply(`[`MixinApplicatorStandard.java:346`](https://MixinApplicatorStandard.java:346)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.TargetClassContext.apply(`[`TargetClassContext.java:421`](https://TargetClassContext.java:421)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.TargetClassContext.applyMixins(`[`TargetClassContext.java:403`](https://TargetClassContext.java:403)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.applyMixins(`[`MixinProcessor.java:363`](https://MixinProcessor.java:363)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClass(`[`MixinTransformer.java:234`](https://MixinTransformer.java:234)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClassBytes(`[`MixinTransformer.java:202`](https://MixinTransformer.java:202)`) ~[sponge-mixin-0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5.jar:0.12.5+mixin.0.8.5]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:422`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:422)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.tryLoadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:323`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:323)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.loadClass(`[`KnotClassDelegate.java:218`](https://KnotClassDelegate.java:218)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassLoader.loadClass(`[`KnotClassLoader.java:112`](https://KnotClassLoader.java:112)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `at java.lang.ClassLoader.loadClass(`[`ClassLoader.java:520`](https://ClassLoader.java:520)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields0(Native Method) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.privateGetDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:3297`](https://Class.java:3297)`) ~[?:?]` `at java.lang.Class.getDeclaredFields(`[`Class.java:2371`](https://Class.java:2371)`) ~[?:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.FieldLocatorTypes.(`[`FieldLocatorTypes.java:25`](https://FieldLocatorTypes.java:25)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.optifine.reflect.Reflector.(`[`Reflector.java:503`](https://Reflector.java:503)`) ~[Optifine-mapped.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_568(class_128.java:175) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.class_128.method_24305(class_128.java:345) ~[client-intermediary.jar:?]` `at net.minecraft.client.main.Main.main(`[`Main.java:152`](https://Main.java:152)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21-1.19.4.jar:?]` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.game.minecraft.MinecraftGameProvider.launch(`[`MinecraftGameProvider.java:468`](https://MinecraftGameProvider.java:468)`) ~[fabric-loader-0.14.21.jar:?]` `... 2 more` 

If anyone knows a solution to this problem, I'd be more than willing to listen!
EDIT: I forgot to mention I'm using exclusively Optifabric when I got this log. No other mods were in my folder other than fabric-api-0.82.0+1.19.4, optifabric-1.13.24, and OptiFine_1.19.4_HD_U_I4.

It’s 11 years later now.
The book you told me to read sits well-loved and slightly worse for wear on my shelf. I walk by it every day. Open its pages, and you’ll see where my highlighters ceased to be functional.
You gave me the nickname, and said you’d be H. I loved it so much, I still do, like a letter written by you just for me.
But then at the end, they weren’t together.
I read too much into that.
I did identify with her, avoided feeling too much esp. if it was in the way of my work. I didn’t realize then I’d end up exactly the same, disenchanted with the real world. Realizing it was just as bad as those trying to take credit for running it in those pages.
But now I know. And I know feelings aren’t a weakness, even when they seem ridiculous.
The best part of that book was the love story.
But I wish we had changed the ending.
From s (sometimes d)
Update Someone reported this post for my potential being in a mental health crisis? Idk how it was interpreted in that way, but I can assure you I am fine and we’ll cared for by loved ones around me.

Why would you wait till tomorrow to get help? Why take the risk that there is no tomorrow? Why tack on another day of pain? Why tack on another day of suffering?
It's time to ask for help today - I promise, you are loved! The people around you want the best for you! Why cause yourself and them another day of suffering! Why not get help today? What if there is no tomorrow? What if you don't wake up tomorrow? Anything is possible! Everyone thinks it won't happen to me. I am safe! Not me! I'll get sober tomorrow! Why not today? Why not feel good tomorrow? Why not wake tomorrow sober? Why not start the new life you are craving today? Why not focus on yourself? Why not take care of yourself? Why not love yourself even if you love no one else? Make something of yourself today! Work hard today! Be grateful today! Be blessed today! Do it just for today and forget about yesterday. Worry about tomorrow when it comes! Why not save someone today? Why not help someone today? Why not smile today? Why not be happy today? Why not ask that girl out today? Why not ask that guy out today? Why not do it all today? Tomorrow becomes the next day and then the next day becomes a week from now. Then a week becomes a month and then a month becomes a year. You are not getting younger!! You are getting older!! These are all important questions we should be asking ourselves! These are all important tasks we should be accomplishing and working towards. Welcome to the community today!! Welcome to the start of your new life!! Welcome to a community that is going to change the way you live. Change the way you think! Change the way you feel! This community will change you! It will change you into a better person! Into someone who thinks positive! Someone who appreciates life. Someone who is sober! Do the work and get the reward!
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